It has been quite a long time I didn't come and update my blog...
This few months have happened a lots of things...
I has been single for the third months...
Our 3 years and 9 months relationship has over...
He has his new girlfriend and his new life without me...
Well, I accepted the facts and truth showed to me...
He is not belong to me...
"BREAK" is the only way for us...
The first month of break~
I can't really cope with those sad feeling...
I feel so suffer about the feeling having in my mind...
It kills me a lots...
I can't really sleep well, eat well, focus well...
I can't remember how many times I have cried for it...
Luckily there are a lots of friends stay besides me and give support to me...
The second month of break~
Still in the progress to move out the life with him...
Tell myself don't think about him anymore...
Those memories inside my mind are pass tense...
Never have any chances to get it become present or even future tense...
This guy is totally moved out from my life...
He decided to treat me by such a cruel way...
"BETRAY" for the second time...
How hurt can imagine...
Because of this...
I have planned to study oversea...
I can't bear with a place full of memories for him and I...
The Third month of break~
Times passed so fast...
And now I can slowly to move out from the suffer life...
I know how to think mature...
I know how to let it go...
I know how to live more happily...
I won't blame at anyone again...
There are no right or wrong in the relationship...
Anyway, I know he has treated me well this few years...
I know he never cheat me...
The sad case for us is we really not suitable for each other...
Our relationship won't get longer if forcing each other...
I didn't start into a new relationship yet...
Even there are a lots of choices for me...
Single is the life I want now...
Only single can enjoy the simple life...
Sometimes ONE is better than TWO...
And now I decided not to go oversea to further study...
Because my family is important for me...
I don't want to leave them for such a long time...
Hope that you really get what you want...
What you decided is good for you...
Sorry that I can't stay besides you forever...
"兩個完全不認識對方的人，
從陌生人變成了普通朋友，
再從普通朋友變成了知己，
再從知己變成了一對情侶，
再變成毫不相干的陌生人，
這或許也就是人生的輪迴，
是否能再變回普通的朋友，
是否能再變回甜蜜的情侶，
沒人知道也沒人曉得答案。"
世上最悲哀的莫過於兩個曾是關係很親的人，
突然在一轉眼之間就變成了最熟悉的陌生人。
我會笑著去過我的人生，
就算再也沒有你的陪伴，
我也不會再為你哭泣了，
我不會再為你而停下了，
你的不珍惜讓我放棄了。
